Love started with a lie

Submitted by Jennifer Kim

It was a regular old Sunday and i was coming back from Church. My mom asked me if i wanted to go hit some balls with her. I didn't have anything else to do and my mom wanted to go, so i agreed. It was a cold day and i wasn't really in the mood to hit some balls, so i went inside to the lobby. I was just leaning on the golf stand trying to get away from the cold air, when this girl that works there comes up to me. She says, "You see that guy over there with the gray shirt, what do you think of him?" He wasn't the greatest looking guy on the planet, but he was cute and looked extremly nice. So i told her that he looks nice and everything. Then she briefly asked me my age like it wouldn't matter, so i lied saying that i was 15 without really caring, thinking the guy and i wouldn't go anywhere and if i told her my real age i knew she'd go "ooo" and kind of go back to what she was doing in a polite way. She told me he was a great guy and all so i should go over and talk to him. I wasn't really confident and i'm not the type of girl who'd do those kind of things. She kinda noticed that i wanted to, but that i didn't have the guts. I guess the guy wanted to talk to me and everything. I would usually think that as shallow and stuff but this was different. She goes back and tells him to go and talk to me. But he was kinda shy too, so she rolled a basketball toward me and told him to go get it and start a conversation with me. I saw the ball roll towards me, i picked it up and gave it to him. Then we started talking. He told me everything, it was amazing how he trusted me in such a lil time. I admitt i was attracted to him and i knew he was with me. My mom came out when she was done, i didn't want to say goodbye but i didn't have a choice. I said goodbye and nice meeting you. WHAT THE HELL! GOODBYE NICE MEETING YOU?!?!? What was i thinking.
Ever since that day, i regretted not giving him my number. A week passed, then 2 then 3. It seemed hopless until my mom and i went to go take my dog to get groomed and she told me on the way we were gonna head to hit some balls the same place i met the guy. I was happy but he worked from 3-11 p.m on weekends and it was only 10 a.m. I was sad until i started writing a letter to him reminding him of who i was and asking him if he wanted to, to call me and i gave him my number. The girl who first introduced me to him was there, so i asked her if she remembered me and she said yes. So i asked if she could do me a favor and give the letter to him. He got the letter and at about 10:30i got a phone call. It was an unknown number, my heart started beating so fast. I picked up the phone and it was him. I was beyond happy, and since that day we talk everyday for at least 3 hours. The problem was i got closer and closer to him but i lied about my age, we had a 4 year difference when he thought we had a 2 year difference. I couldn't admitt to him cuz i really liked the guy and i didn't want to loose him. If i told him i wasn't 15, he might think i was lieing about everything so he wouldn't like me anymore or talk to me. I still haven't told him and everyday, we talk more and more saying how much we like each other and everything. I feel so bad not telling him but i care about him to much to hurt him and loose him.

I don't know what to do and i truly like this guy, but i dont want to loose him. It was like love at first sight. If anyone reads this, can u respond with any thoughts, comments or suggestions in Lovelandia forum